A little bit of crazy has set in

I made the mistake this afternoon to do some googling on 2 cell embryo IVF success cases. I couldn't find anything positive, or any success stories with a 2 cell. If I've left a stone unturned please let me know. I've got to stop this researching I know...it is what it is at this point. I cried all the way home to the point of headache (I am ridiculous). I told DH and my mom both that I'm not feeling hopeful, now I've deflated their hopes and I feel guilty. I think it's my defensive armor for the expectation of a negative result on Monday, I guess I shouldn't have shared, wasn't fair of me.

I had come to terms with the 2 day transfer, I figured my chances were just as good as with a 3 day, but what I hadn't really researched was a 2 day transfer w/ a 2 cell division (the other that was transfered hadn't divided at all).

I'm left with this hope: My uterine environment and thick lining saved the day for the embies and they divided like I couldn't even imagine. I hope so at least, my current positive attitude hasn't saved the day that's for sure.

***I hope I hope I hope I hope***

My daughter and I have a beauty appointment this evening at the local little "boutique", she is getting her 2nd ever eyebrow waxing (the girl has serious eyebrow issues, I had to step in, normally I wouldn't think a 12 year old should be waxed as she doesn't even shave her legs yet), she also is getting a hair trim and I am getting a Thanksgiving treat of a pedicure. My first since I swore off of them towards the end of summer (trying to cut out the "latte" spending).

Have a Happy Thanksgiving everyone if I don't post before then!